Consciousness Revisited?

We are striving to realize ourselves, yet we never seem to get where we always are without becoming confused; for how can we realize ourselves if we don't actually know what it is we are being? Look. We don't know who we are we just know that we are --- that's the important thing isn't it?

Well, you would think that if we knew ourselves we would never engage in a hunt for something we already possessed, yet we strive on in a blind attempt to discover ourselves through believing that we can reference our true reality from some great power archive in the sky. We already know ourselves; but we're trying to revisit this as if it were a separate, initial state of being and knowing --- the "beginning" as it were. Unfortunately this is an attempt at the impossible, since we cannot obtain an absolute, thus we further confuse ourselves. We must realize that consciousness cannot be revisited since its' considerations of being naturally issues from within itself. Consciousness knows that it is, by virtue of its considerations; hence consciousness is self-receptive. This means that consciousness is already realized; for in being self-receptive, it is always preexistent within its own presence.

However consciousness is still in an odd place; for even though it knows that it is, it can't recognize itself. The fact is consciousness itself is the absolute, but it will never find recognition in this if it continually seeks to uncover itself. This is to say, you cannot become what you always are.

You are consciousness itself. You have been conscious of something; you are conscious of something now. You can conceive of a beginning, and you can consider an ending. Indeed, you are consciousness, so you can do all this. Yet you cannot revisit, exactly, the same consciousness of just a moment ago; nor can you revisit when it started, or when it ended. And quite frankly you don't care to. So why the fixation upon revisiting something which you have never strayed from?